Thursday, August 26, 2004

Sometimes it's just hard.... I've treid not to argue, but everytime it just happens. All I want to just to express my views on certain stuff and other people gets dragged in. I've been tired. But I still held on. I know it'll work... but.... sighz.

What's have gregory, alex, vincent, gotta do with me? They are my colleagues. But she said that I have something going on with Gregory. Please. I beg to be understood that Greogory has a girlfriend and I've met his girlfriend before too. We dun sms much, we dun talk much and I dun give adamn if he's in the office or not. I just can't stand to hear that she said I had something going on with Greg. I really want this accusation to stop.

You said if I had nothing going on with greg, why did all the other salesman keep teasing me and him? Have you not know MEN? What have they got to do but tease at women? They think that it's fun.... they think that they're just fooling around. I can't stand it!

Stop accusing me of having something going on with Greg. I'm not protecting him but my own integrity. I won't be accused of something that is not true and keep quiet about it. It's foolish.

I just dun like the way you handle stuff sometimes, it drives me crazy, drives me boiling at times. I really hate it when you go out in the middle of the night to drink and meet up with people that you never told me about. And comes back drunk. Dun give me that reason that it doesn't interfere with our plans. It's just sickening. You dun know about my worries for your safety.... you dun....

And like I said yesterday, that everytime misunderstandings happen, you push me out of your picture completely. Anything that has to do with me, you'll say "I'm not meeting you" "You pass the stuff over yourself" "I'm not picking up the things for you". You just want me completely out of your life... And whenever I tell you that I'm tired of some of the things you do... You'll just give me a straight answer "Let go then". Why doesn't you find a way to solve it, to resolve whatever I said instead of asking me to let go of everything??? I dun understand this part...

Why didn't you think of other stuff rather than Break Ups and Letting Go??? Is this relationship that unimportant that we can just let go of it when we wanna to? You think this is a game that we can quit?

I'm just frustrated......



Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Hee... Now using my lappie to blog this... abit not used to it... The lappie belongs to my GM... I think he uses the laptop to hammer people... The whole lappie so broken... Anyways, I'm also using darin's internet connection.. Using WI-FI wireless LAN connection.. Heehee... So good.. Both of us online at the same time. :)

But this com is dued to be formatted soon. So i'll prolly will miss it for a few days before i can use it again. But mean time... I'll keep using it till it's dued for abortion.

ciaoz.

Monday, August 23, 2004

Rules are rules....

BUT RULES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN!!!

Thursday, August 19, 2004


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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

SLEEPY!!!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

I'm right here in the office.. Time Check 12.40pm

Haven't gone out for lunch yet... Bored....

Anyways, so many things have happened again... Too long and personal a story to be posted. But been living in a void last week.... Everything seems to just crash infront of me... I didn't know I was a person that can't let go of something to easily despite me saying that "If a Person wants a breakup, I'll gladly let the person go.." But hey! I was wrong... I din know that letting go is such a heart-wrenching episode one could endure. I cried buckets and pails. I sat alone along the Singapore River.... Crying.... I was lost.. simply lost for the night... Thinking the world is going to end that night... I drank and walked in the drizzle. The world seems oblivious around me. Cars passed by like silent shadows around me. The Esplanade is the worse place to be when you're having a heartache... as you see so many couples hugging in the shadows... and wondering why I ain't there with her... So I avoided that part and walked along the Padang.....

That was a bad day.... where I could have lost everything with just a phone call... A call which was meant to break.. and not make... It's frightening...

Too frightening.....


Friday, August 06, 2004

The Sunshine has left... and now my life falls back into darkness and despair..... What else is left when all I ever had seemed to have just collasped right infront of me.... There are nothing to look forward to anymore... Nothing's left.... Though I'll always be here... holding on to the thread that kept you in my heart... Waiting.....




"There was nothing to say
The day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I held a taxi in the rain
Looking for someplace to ease the pain"

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Guns n'Roses, "Knockin' On Heaven's Door"

Mama take this badge from me
I can't use it anymore
It's getting dark too dark to see
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Mama put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore
That cold black cloud is comin' down
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

You are the drawing.

Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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